LEAN NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING (Proverbs 3:5-8)

5/26/10 I went back to work for the first time after my mom had died. It went a lot better then I thought it would. I did have periods of sadness, but work helps me to think of other people other then dwelling on my own circumstances. I’m worried about my “new dad”. I call him my new dad rather then step dad because I feel like it’s more intimate and he thinks it’s funny:@) My mom and new dad had the philosophy of “everything is going to workout”. So when my mom died the family wanted to make sure he was going to be fine and when we looked @ the finances we realized that they had 49,000 in credit card debt. Both were on social security not making much. Now that mom is dead her income is now gone and he has to live on half. This makes the family nervous. If he couldn’t live on both incomes how will he live on one?! So we are gently guiding him and we are starting to cut the fat. He can make it if he keeps a budget, but we are not sure this is going to work because he is 69yrs old and always lived a care free life style. I’m doing a lot of praying for him and hope he understands the seriousness of it (I think he does). To kind of change the subject when I was at work I was asked to fill out an emergency contact form. Then I thought about it :( I would always put my wife on the form then I put my mom but now? I feel like I have no body. I guess I could put my new dad but… I just feel like I am all alone. Am I an orphan now? It’s a strange feeling. I know God is always there and I can talk to Him whenever I want but… I just feel lost. “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones”(Proverbs 3:5-8). This is my life verse and I don’t understand what I am supposed to do. So I am going to keep on acknowledging HIM and trust that He will direct me. "Be still, and know that I am God”(Psalm 46:10). I’m not sure what God wants me to learn from this, but I know He has a plan.